Reflecting...

Well here is something I must have written while under the influence of the Inebriant C2H5OH. Just found it on my hard disk today. I really donot know what was going on in my head when this was written. Infact after reading it, I couldnt even decipher its entire meaning or its purpose. I guess it'd sound good as a song though, maybe a dethish song with growling vocals and all...

Into a void I incessantly stare
How the fuck can I even dare
Yes, into a void I incessantly stare!

All is filth, dirt and shit
On which I wont even spit
Yes, its filth, dirt and shit!

Its all blood and ashes, flesh and bones
Bloody hearts all turned to stones
Yes, Blood and ashes, flesh and bones!

Living in despair we all cry
Without giving anything another try
Yes, in despair we all cry!

All in this gloom swept astray
Lost is the bloody good old way
Yes, in this gloom swept away!

Continuously killing our own self
Avoiding any possible help
Yes, killing our own self!

All of us must rot in hell
Too low, the level to which we fell
Yes, must rot in hell!

Every new bud and every new dawn
We feel its just some maggot spawn
Yes, every new bud every new dawn!

If thats our life we deserve to die
In the red region deserve to fry
Yes, we deserve to die!

But arent we already just dead
We'v stopped using our bloody head
Yes, arent we already just dead?

- Amogh S. Kabe
21st August 2008
01:31 AM
G-154 Azad Bhawan
IIT Roorkee.

P.S: Im not intoxicated.
P.P.S: The day I get drunk I will tell you...
P.P.P.S: LoL!!!

This is the exact stuff that I found out. Why the hell did I write my Room No in it? Did I think it'd get misplaced or something??

WTF...

What the Fuck... There are times when WTF is just all you manage to say. And then there are times when its hard even to manage that!
Recently I just lost an upper front tooth. Yeah I did, Im just not kidding. It was not while saving a buxom beauty from a few rowdy goond (I wish I'd lost it that way). I dint even loose it in a street fight, none boxed me in my face. Nope, I dint even meet with an accident, not even a minor one. Well, it just fell off. I was in the train on my way home. Early in the morning I woke up and lo my tooth was missing! Just like that! I had to go to a dentist. Id rather face a man-eating tiger than a dentist.
This is not the wierdest thing to happen to me. I met with another WTF incident. Iv had this eye allergy for the past 2-3 months. Just a week back when I had a checkup with my doc, she announced, "Your eyes are allergic to your hair. Please go for a crew cut asap..." She expected me to let go of 6 months worth of hard work just like that, at her whim. I was half expecting the dentist to say my tooth fell of because it was allergic to my tongue or something.
The dentist has fixed a cap upon all that was left of my old tooth. My hair however are still intact. Time passes by and so do these WTF moments...

Yawn...

Its tough to go to sleep at night when you've already been sleeping all day long. And its even tougher staying awake at night with nothing to do. I dont feel like watching movies, books dont do the trick either. I dont feel like listening to music (not even CoB), dont feel like playing guitar (now thats strange) dont feel like studying (as if I ever do), these days infact I just fail to find a way to kill time. Is it we who really kill time or is it time that kills us? Yeah! Now Im jobless enough to think like that...

Newtons 1st law of motion............

S-37 RJB -I'm gonna miss it this year!!- about half a year back I lay sprawled upon my bed half asleep and fully confused thinking about my first post. I'd just decided to emulate Dang and opened up my own blog 'Babeypedia'. And a poem - too mushy to be mine - I'd written long back to impress my seniors and to win a place into WONA, came to my rescue.

I guess I haven't done justice to my blog. Its been a long long time since my last blog. Unlike my initial blogging days, I no more have a shortage of topics. In fact I'v enough astray brainwaves pulsating in my brain to fill up volumes and volumes with my usual gibberish. But the truth is I haven't even been able to put together a single post let alone volumes. I really dint know what was keeping me from blogging. Was it the absence of my laptop - which has spent half the vacation in HP Care Centres being fixed up - or the absence of Wi-Fi or was it the absence of free time. Well I guess neither these nor the numerous other reasons I coined were true.
The reason was laziness. I'd rather sleep than write. Its not that I dint try, I did but I must confess it was half hearted. I tried to write but never went beyond a line or two I'd often linger on the first or second line for a long time and then I'd quit for the time being. I had to break free of my inertia. Bits and pieces of an article on inertia - the mental one mind you - that I'd written with Dang started cropping up in my mind. I tried hard, but Mr. Inertia tried harder and when I was about to give up, it happened I just needed a bit more of nudging.
Most of my friends have started blogging while my blog lies half dead already. There is so much I want to blog about, so much I want to share. And today I read this scrap from Dang, "And wt about ur blog....it seems every1 is bloging now expect you..cum on update ur blog...lot of ppl frm 1st year hav already started to blog..." This proved to be that one nudge I needed. And here I am at a cousins place with a virus infected half dead pc blogging again!!!